demented_child0

why do i get so attached when i know somethings not gonna last? i pretty much gave up ever hoping for a guy to like me and as soon as i do that i find someone. and he uses me. wtf is up with that. i freaking hate people like that. i knew it wasnt gonna last. me and brittany discussed every possible angle of it. and i KNEW. thats what makes me mad. i shouldve listened to my instinct. this world is so screwed up and im getting screwed over by it. and THATS why i dont trust guys. cos once you do its hard not to get attached. oh well. i guess its what little chelsea deserves. stupid child. you shouldve known. and now your getting torn up because of HIM. hes not even worth it. all guys are scum of the earth. no matter what age you are (seven years old, who is so unloved that they have to turn to a seven year old for some action?!) ive been hurt and i think im just starting to get used to it. well, at least i got a few good poems out of it. thats all guys are worth. heartbreak and some depressing words on a page. a couple slits on the leg. that ALL they will EVER be worth!!

*rant time over*

ugh. my sister tried to commit suicide on sunday. 17 sleeping pills. stupid.

havent written in a long time. not much to talk about. arg. so bored. no even freaking reads hits! why the heck do i bother.... screw this.

yeah. a journal thing. xanga is ssooooo much better! easier to handle and maintain. if you wanna go to my xanga account, heres the url.

http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=demented_child23

and here a picture of me! :D ^_^

me at a surf camp in ca:
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v334/demented_child/pics%20of%20me/myback.bmp

and heres one of my BESTEST friend brittany. shes So cool! she is my long lost twin only two feet taller. this is us at magic mountain, actually. we went last weekend! it was fun!

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v334/demented_child/pics%20of%20me/meandbrittany2.bmp

heres more randoms of me and others.

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v334/demented_child/pics%20of%20me/meatpoolmodified.bmp

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v334/demented_child/pics%20of%20me/davidsbirthdaymodified.bmp

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v334/demented_child/pics%20of%20me/mebaptized2.bmp <---me being baptized! *^_^*


THE END FOR NOW.... DAHAM (ha ha brittany!) LIVEJOURNAL!!