mother of crap

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 19:35:45 GMT

why do i get so attached when i know somethings not gonna last? i pretty much gave up ever hoping for a guy to like me and as soon as i do that i find someone. and he uses me. wtf is up with that. i freaking hate people like that. i knew it wasnt gonna last. me and brittany discussed every possible angle of it. and i KNEW. thats what makes me mad. i shouldve listened to my instinct. this world is so screwed up and im getting screwed over by it. and THATS why i dont trust guys. cos once you do its hard not to get attached. oh well. i guess its what little chelsea deserves. stupid child. you shouldve known. and now your getting torn up because of HIM. hes not even worth it. all guys are scum of the earth. no matter what age you are (seven years old, who is so unloved that they have to turn to a seven year old for some action?!) ive been hurt and i think im just starting to get used to it. well, at least i got a few good poems out of it. thats all guys are worth. heartbreak and some depressing words on a page. a couple slits on the leg. that ALL they will EVER be worth!!

*rant time over*

Thu, 11 Nov 2004 04:20:15 GMT

ugh. my sister tried to commit suicide on sunday. 17 sleeping pills. stupid.

Tue, 26 Oct 2004 03:33:07 GMT

havent written in a long time. not much to talk about. arg. so bored. no even freaking reads hits! why the heck do i bother.... screw this.

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mother of crap